Thankful

Goodness, I have been feeling overwhelmed with life right now. Everything seems so complicated. Through the compication and the crazy rollercoaster ride, John and I have seemed to have gotten closer-if that is even possible. We have had a relationship from day one that I never knew was even something that can exist. But throughout these past two years of 16 different fertility cycles we have become inseparable. Emotionally there is no way that I could get through everything that we have been through without his love and support. He has been behind me from day one. May 8th will be our "first date" anniversary of 6 years. I cannot believe how time flies but it is amazing when I am with him!
So onto a different note, John and I applied for the IVF loan in hopes that a miracle would happen and we would actually be approved. Unfortunately, though it didn't happen. It was something that we had come to terms with because in our hearts we already knew what the results would be- It was like playing the lotto. We all do it in hopes and prayers with dreams of what will happen if our numbers would be chosen and of coarse the let down afterwards.
I have talked to many different people offering support, stories and suggestions on the want for adoption. I can honestly say I am very excited about what may come out with this. It is great to see and hear from friends and family- even ones that I may not hear from often talking about how they support and want to help us in any way in finding someone who is looking for adoption for their newborn or soon to be born little one. I believe in my heart that one day it will happen... I just hate waiting lol. But with all the love and support our friends and family have shown, it is just a matter of when. Friends have shared my blog with others, put on facebook, talked to others in their churches, written letters of recommendations and have kept their ears and eyes open. I cannot thank everyone enough. All I can ask is for everyone to continue to do so. I really do not mind having you guys share my information, story, blog or facebook with others. It is the only way to get the word out. I am starting to get a facebook page connected to my regular page. But I do not want to advertise it until there is pictures up and it looks good. But I want you guys to know that it will be up soon- so hopefully it is another means of media to get out there to people.
Thank you guys again for keeping us in your hearts, thoughts, and prayers. It means the world to us and I just ask that you continue to do so. Without you guys we would be nowhere.