It Just Keeps Coming...

So last week my lovely period came very unexpectedly. After the doctors canceled my cycle because of my eggs not cooperating with my body and the medicine I went into "give up" mode for a while. I couldn't believe that after everything else that has gone wrong on the fertility end the last 5 years that my body could do even more to work against me. I was shocked I guess is the right way to put it. It was something that hit me more emotionally and mentally than any of the other tries. I stopped talking about it and stayed in bed and to myself for awhile. but I'm back now and ready to try again...hopefully.
But anyways... with my period starting it meant that after they cancelled the cycle my egg(s) decided to grow slowly on their own and I ovulated but it was way past the time I should of causing me to have a period very late in my cycle. I shouldn't of ovulated or had a period this month. I just don't understand what my body is thinking- it's like its against me the whole way. We were going to start another cycle starting with provera the first of February and now we cannot. I can't even start the provera (to make me have a period) for 2 more weeks because it decided to just show up on its own. I have to wait because I cannot have a period so close together. Now again I'm waiting... to wait some more. I am feeling more and more stressed everyday. I try breathing and telling myself that stressing isn't helping anything- it's so much easier said than done. The doctors are beginning to get concerned about my reaction to the medicine. I am afraid that I am going to be cut off soon and that scares me more than anything. We do not have any other options fertility wise because of the high cost of the next step... again more stress to deal and think about. - I need a drink lol.
Well, I'm just venting- thanks for listening.