I really don't even know what to say... This cycle has turned completely negative. What hurts the most that it is like my body just gave up on me. Things were going fine- eggs were growing, medicine was working and then all of a sudden nothing. My eggs stopped getting bigger and actually they started shrinking. Yesterday I did not have a single viable egg and I had about 10 eggs/follicles that were at 8mm- Which is the reason for all my swelling and bloating (my pants don't even fit right). Being so late in my cycle with nothing to work with the doctors cancelled my treatment. All the money, time and pain that went into it was for nothing.
It turns out that my PCOS is the cause of this cycle's turn of events. Like it doesn't get in my way enough. The hormones in my body has caused the fertility drug to stop working like it should. It's almost like the extra hormones that the PCOS causes counter acted the medicine. It is so depressing, I don't know what to do or what the next step is. The doctor told me that we cannot do what we have been doing fertility wise so she has to change the treatment. So there is one of two options- 1 to do a treatment that may cause no growth or option 2 do a treatment that may cause too much growth. Either way the chances are not good and I do not like this feeling of helplessness. It's just not fair. If it's not one thing it's another. John and I are not giving up we just don't know what to do. I'm going to email my doctor to talk more about options but there's not much left. This cancelled cycle cost us almost $3,000. We don't know when financially we will be able to do anything. There has to be more answers out there. Not giving up... Not giving up... Not ever giving up!!
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